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[10 Oct 2004|08:21pm] |
in JSA (Junior State of America...it's a club at my school that holds political discussions) on thursday the topic was g-y marriage.
the opponents just didnt make any sense! i just can't understand how people can be so blind. like, one of them said that in history, all of the great empires have fallen within like 300 or 400 years of accepting g-ys. That doesn't even make any sense! look at GREECE for christ's sake. They gave us democracy and math and science and philosophy and the smartest of them, the athenians, ran around n-ked and were g-y! The reason their civilization declined was because during a war, they were all grouped together and a massive disease from horses spread through the group.
god.
then some kid says, "Well it's their fault they choose to be g-y"
so someone responded "what makes you think it's chosen? Why would anyone choose to be tormented and discriminated against?"
so the kid says (i'm not even kidding).."Because g-ys like to be persecuted!"
it was ridiculous.
another kid stood up and said "why can't g-ys just love each other without being married? a sister and a brother love each other, but they don't have to get married."
WHAT?!?!?! that's an ENTIRELY DIFFERENT KIND OF LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then the same jacka-s says, "we know we're not going to stop people from becoming homos-xual, we just want to make a statement that the people of this nation do not accept the immorral ways of g-ys."
i was so angry. SO angry. How can people be so horrible?!? how can they be so blind?!? marriage is about love!
and of course they went on to say things like "well g-ys can't have children, and when they do end up raising children, they mostly turn out g-y"
alsdjflakjsdlfkjaslkdjflkajsdlkfjlaskjdflkjsad~!!!!!!!!!!!!1
so F-cking what?!?!?!?
if a conservative woman who had to have her uterus removed and a conservative man want to get married, should they be denied? after all, they can't have kids, and if they do raise one, it will probably turn out to be a conservative...
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[23 Sep 2004|05:20pm] |
well...hello ladies! I haven't posted for quite a bit, so I thought I'd let you know I still exist. I have been posting a lot in the actual forum though. Anyway, I'm 16, from CO, I love art, philosophy, photography, psychology, politics, etc. :) And I'm looking to meet more friends online.
here's a pic or two
( Read more... )
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| NEWS FLASH |
[18 Jul 2004|09:43pm] |
ally, you're single because you don't want to slow down
Whether you're working all hours, busy with school, or planning a cross-country move, it sounds like you just don't have time for anyone else in your life...right now, that is. Your timing may be off in other aspects, too. So take a step back for a moment. Is there something underlying this? Could it be you're afraid to get involved for some reason or another, and are therefore attracted to people who are simply unavailable?
Whether you're secretly sabotaging yourself or not, try a little exercise. Open your mind to those who are around you (and available!) right now. Then let up on your schedule to let that someone in. That is, unless you want to get married to your goals, and not Mr. or Mrs. Right.
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[17 Jul 2004|01:27am] |
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*sigh* someone should come hold me while i sleep. i can't sleep, i mean. i'm too distracted. i just would like someone to let me relax and feel like everything will work out
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[13 Jul 2004|11:21pm] |
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i dont know how much more of this i can take. i'm going to .
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[12 Jul 2004|04:06pm] |
god i need it so badly right now. something and yet, i have no idea what it is. i need some form of catharthis. my artistic mind seems to be shut down, as i just dont have any ideas. i'm just shut down entirely. i h*te this feeling. i told my manager i felt sick the other day. the truth is, i'm not sick. not physically. i'm just in that place. that part of my cycle where i'm just so bored. it's just like my inkblot test indicated. i'm afraid of boredom. yet, i can't find enough to keep me stimulated. i'm never satisfied. sometimes i think i'd be nice to just be okay with the way things are, and then i realize that if that were my lifestyle, i wouldn't be me. i need some me time. i need to just sit down and hang out with myself. the thing is, whenever i try to just be alone, everyone assumes something is wrong. is it really that strange for someone to be perfectly content being alone? i mean, not forever, of course. but for a day or two. and yet
at the same time, i also want something more that i can't provide. i'm lonely, but i need space. does this even make sense according to the laws of physics? in all honesty....gah i h*te admitting this, i dont know why....in all honesty..i wish i were dating someone. well...a...woman. there i said it. i'm lonely for feminine love. we're not talking about s*x here either. i'm talking about affection.
i'm in such a place of discomfort right now. i feel that i'll never be able to show anyone just who i am, and i believe that this is the reason i cherish my time alone so much. When I'm alone, i dont have to worry about hiding the real me. But what am i to do about it? I can't do anything. I'm a leader of 125 people for christ's sake. I can't be les. I can't come out to them. I'm supposed to be the kind of woman that is respected by everyone, no matter what. It's not my fault that people have prejudices, i know that. but i'm supposed to be okay no matter what, you know?
i'm going to go clean my room.
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[08 Jul 2004|03:33pm] |
Original Inkblot Test
ally, your subconscious mind is driven most by Curiosity
This means you are full of questions about life, people, and the potential of your future. You spend more time than others envisioning the possibilities of your life — things that others are too afraid to consider.
Your curiosity burns with an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself or the world — which ultimately is the greatest way for you to feel satisfied.
It is possible that the underlying reason for your drive towards curiosity is a deeply rooted fear of boredom. That means that you are probably more susceptible than others to feel like you're falling into a rut when life slows down into a comfortable routine.
You need to make sure you have stimulation in your life — that makes you feel like you're innovating or being exposed to the ideas and experiences that truly inspire you.
With such a strong orientation towards curiosity, you're also prone to a rebellious quality that shows up when you feel you are just going through the motions, and are unable to really influence the world around you. But interestingly enough, your drive towards novel experiences also indicates an openness others don't have, but wish they did.
Unconsciously, your curiosity presses you to learn more, experience more, and get the most out of life.
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[05 Jun 2004|11:41pm] |
| unknowntaboo's LJ stalker is artisticlonging! | | artisticlonging is stalking you because another friend of yours told them you liked them. They are also in jail for ! |
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[26 May 2004|05:58pm] |
GAHHDDAMINT I CLEANING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO now that i got that out
i'm sitting around n*ked. i really dont like wearing clothes, and i was really dirty cuz of all the f*cking CLEANING i've been doing since 9 IN THE GODDAMN MORNING i took a shower and then stayed . i feeel clean...
well haha. no seriously. i can't wait to go join a n*dist colony when i'm 18. it's gonna rock. man. i imagine the people there are just fascinating, mentally, you know?
oh f*ck. just rememberd. must go call agents!
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[22 May 2004|05:04pm] |
iiii'm
going to clean my room today.
and my car.
well i did that already
so just my room
scary.
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[21 May 2004|09:24pm] |
*smiles*
my next art project will be incredibly controversial and could possibly cause several major chaotic occurances.
it's just art though
but to the people closest to me, of course they'll think "oh but art is ALWAYS an expression of what you feel"
which it's not
any one who knows anything about art knows it's not.
just look at dali, margritte (he said so himself: this is not a pipe), picasso...etc.
it's not hard to see.
writers?
same thing.
which is actually what this project is. a writing piece.
the point of it is to envoke a desire to examine one's self in terms of values, morals, desires, dreams, and purposes.
how am i going about this, though?
there's the controversial part.
I'm going to write a letter. not just any letter, but a letter from the perspective of a su*cidal who is about to k*ll him/herself. A goodbye letter in which he/she will recall moments of his/her life that were meaningful, people that were meaningful, things he/she never got the chance to say, etc.
it won't be morbid at all. haha dont worry. the only morbid thing one could possibly say about it is the fact that it will be written as a goodbye letter. but really, it's just a self-evaluation. and i figure, who better to self-evaluate then someone who knows their life is about to end? plus, since i've been there i think it'd be partially an educational piece, to teach about depression and self-awareness. but that's not my first priority.
Man, it's going to be awesome. I've been thinking about it for the last few weeks. i'm so psyched. i just need time now! but in my head I already have several ideas. I really had to take it from my own life, though, because i wanted it to be REAL in the sense of SELF-evaluation. it's not right to make up self-evaluation..besides, i think writing this will be most inspirational to myself!
so i was thinking about who i would thank, if i knew i would never have the chance again
and what i would have done differently
and what i would say to everyone in my life, that i just couldn't say before...but since the consequences no longer effect me....i can say them now....
it was a really mind-blowing self discovery thing, thinking this all up. anyway. just my next big idea.
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[16 May 2004|09:15pm] |
I'm in such a mood for writing right now, and I just can't. Have you ever sat down to create something and then not been able to get an idea out of your head? I am playing "both hands" over and over in my head and it's all i can think about, even though I dont want to be thinking about it. I want to be writing. garh.
back to school tomorrow
*le sigh*
i guess i'll post some pictures from last night up....my friends and i were being stupid and incredibly tired at 2:00 Am. then we decided we looked like we were drunk because we are all with our eyes half open, so we started being weird and pretending to be drunk...then her sister came home and we were like "uhh...hhahahah. just kidding! no...really...."
welp. here ya go
( last night )
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[16 May 2004|03:10pm] |
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goddamnit. i dont really enjoy feeling so mundane. it's like....i'm not happy or sad or anything. i just am. I can't stand the idea of mere existance in a life so worth living.
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[16 May 2004|02:54pm] |
Choose 10 people on your friends list, and without stating their names or usernames, say something about them. Never reveal their identities...
okay on this account i dont think i HAVE 10, so we'll do a combo with my retrohippy088 account
1. i find sleeping with ______ to be incredibly comforting
2. ______ always says the sweetest things
3. i've never even met ____________ but ____ is always helping me with problems
4. _____ makes me question my priorities
5. ________ reminds me so much of my little sister and we help each other in many ways
6. _________ always makes me laugh even about stupid stuff...or the same jokes over and over again.
7. _______ is bizarre in that ____ life and ideas are so different from the image _____ attempts to present.
8. _____ always has neat updates and quizzes...
9. ______ used to be so much closer to me before and now i really miss _____ even as a friend.
10. both ____ and _____ sibling are beautiful and awesome.
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[12 May 2004|06:15pm] |
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[06 May 2004|10:44pm] |
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i have a certain friend, and whenever we sleep in the same bed, we always sleep in the same position. one of us always puts our hand over the other one's waist and we hold hands. it's not s*xual at all. it's just so comfortable. it makes us feel peaceful and loved. and it makes me feel safe. i love her to , but i'm not s*xually attracted to her. it's just what we do. it's surprisingly much easier to sleep when you're touching someone who loves you.
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